Violet Benson: I Firmly Resolve, with the Help of Thy Grace, to Sin No More and to Avoid the Near Occasions of Sin
Heart heavy as she reflects on last night’s sins, our subject seeks forgiveness from the higher powers that be. By assuming a penitential position and engaging in sustained application of repetitious rosary recitations, these feelings are allayed. But, as we know from prior observations, the subject will soon transgress again.
Indeed, it is not long before she finds her way to another oft-visited site of personal reckoning. Reflected in those paltry figures are all her financial misdeeds. After last night’s revelry—plus rent—she fears her finances will prevent her from her preferred behavior: living fabulously beyond her means. To do otherwise is unacceptable, even if it means initiating an even more painful ritual—phoning her father for funds.
The bartender has long been one of our culture’s primary recipients of societal guilt and gossip. As our subject indulges in her favorite mode of self-medication she becomes progressively more loquacious, confessing guilty secrets and soliciting advice despite the bartender’s apparent disinterest. Sometimes it just feels good to be heard.
By nature of the ride-sharing demographic, the position of driver is often intertwined with that of a type of psychotherapist. Fuelled by ethanol and exhilarated by the evening’s travails, paired with the imagined privilege of the driver-passenger relationship, a state of pronounced confessional verbosity is produced.
The time has come. Our subject exhibits all the symptoms of another hard night: nausea, emotional instability, lack of motor functioning. As she confesses her many moral failings her roommate attends her bedside to help ease her into the peace of sleep. Tomorrow is a new day, with new opportunities for reflection, confession, and fresh transgressions.
Photographer: Easton Schirra.
Stylist: Jourdan Kadow.
Hair: Nathaniel Dezan using Oribe Hair Care at Opus Beauty.
Makeup: Mikayla Gottlieb using Chanel Les Beiges at Opus Beauty.